in the sun.

60 degree weather and very sunny in March.... that is how my day was yesterday. It was incredible! Today was really nice too and I hear it is supposed to be even nicer tomorrow. It really does seem like weather like this brings people together. For one, the vitamin D everyone is getting takes the sass and rush out of their step and allows them to enjoy their walk and  surroundings and see everyone else doing the same thing. Of course everyone is smiling now because smiles are contagious and simplicity is refreshing. I think it is a perfect way to unwind from a stressful class or day. Just go outside. Sit in the sun and have a picnic then read a nice book or even write. It's so simple and I love them for that. 

I think I'm just now starting to feel like I should in college... and i guess just life in general. I don't feel so trapped anymore and I'm seeing tons more possibilities. It's weird how i hold myself back and how stupid I feel that things were ever hard for me in the first place. When I just don't worry about what people think of me, life is so much more enjoyable.  ...... I don't mind if no one ever reads this and I don't think I'd mind if only one person read it and completely hated it. I'm just happy because it's mine and I am not trying to change it for anyone.  

Sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm supposed to be. Well actually all the time I wonder that along with what I'm supposed to do. You know what? I think I could be happy with going through life not knowing and just being lead to wherever I'm supposed to be at that time. I think I could if I listened when I say, "I give my life to you, Lord." ... I just said that in my mind and then asked " So where am I supposed to be?" ... shoot. It's going to take a bit of time.  So I will live. I will REALLY live.  

- I feel weird signing my name here... so i think i'll put the first thing that comes to mind right.......now!             Yellow.  (--> the sun--> vitamin D-->another awesome day in store for tomorrow hopefully!) 

Thank you God for these days you give us.