weekend in Indy

Last weekend was spent in Indianapolis with my family. I have this really awesome opportunity to make a video for one of my aunt's spiritual talk at this weekend thing (Lamplighter/ Great Banquet) and to do this I took pictures of our weekend. Her life is very fun and the people in her life are really awesome! 

Friday we went to a Chinese restaurant, then to her friends really old house. --- by the way... really old, vintage, anything like that is a real compliment when I say it! I love anything that looks old or dated or was really representative of a different time. --- Then on a whim we just decided to go to Goodwill! The day was awesome! Goodwill, with the intention of going is awesome, but I do have to say that an impulsive trip to Goodwill might be even better. I ended up getting this jacket that has a unicorn on it with a rainbow in the background and then a bigger picture of that on the back, as well as Dorthy- like patterned shorts (but only pink..and with a heart button) I deemed it a successful trip.  

On Saturday we got up at 6 (ish) to go work out at the War Memorial. Oh. My. Gosh. I was hurting soooo bad the next 2 days! Haha but it was totally worth it to see the sunrise and know that we still had the WHOLE day ahead of us.... oh AND watching my aunts basically dying from more recreational activity than they had in a while was very funny! Of course I would have been right in their position if I hadn't started working out a month or so earlier. That started season of working out though and I have to say good luck to them for the rest!  After that Me and my Aunt Stefanie went to a house of the woman she's counseling and we had this awesome Beth Moore lesson. I also got to talk to her mom who is a Serious bird collector/lover and it was really awesome hearing her passion for them and more about them in general. I love birds, but I love what they represent more.  Keeping them as a pet and putting them in a cage would go against everything I love about them, so I choose to admire from afar. After leaving, we then went to Goodwill because.... they were having 50% off of EVERYTHING! I just love when I'm in Indy for those days! I got this really cute shirt and yellow overalls! The last big event that took place was going to an improv comedy show her friends from church were a part of (the group) and putting on. It took place at this really great coffee house where all proceeds go to some sort of cause and all the workers there are volunteers! How awesome is that!? Well it was really funny, especially meeting this son and father (who sat at the table with us)... they were completely born without any sort of idea about what embarrassment is! :) soo funny! I also got to go to the animal shelter which was just across the street for a while and take really cute pictures of cute little puppies and birds ( I wanted to set them all free). The end of the night was very relaxing watching Tv with my aunt and (24 ..yeah!!) 

Sunday was church, nap,  spent maybe 10 minutes in Broadripple and looked at this wonderful vintage store while my aunt picked up my cousin, Aravinds, pottery (piggy bank), spending time with some of my other family members, went back to Aunt Stefs and did a little homework and whined till I had to leave, and then left. It was a great weekend and now it's Thursday and I'm looking forward to going home and working with my mom in the store. This week has been a little stressful but the comfort of home always takes that away.   

in the sun.

60 degree weather and very sunny in March.... that is how my day was yesterday. It was incredible! Today was really nice too and I hear it is supposed to be even nicer tomorrow. It really does seem like weather like this brings people together. For one, the vitamin D everyone is getting takes the sass and rush out of their step and allows them to enjoy their walk and  surroundings and see everyone else doing the same thing. Of course everyone is smiling now because smiles are contagious and simplicity is refreshing. I think it is a perfect way to unwind from a stressful class or day. Just go outside. Sit in the sun and have a picnic then read a nice book or even write. It's so simple and I love them for that. 

I think I'm just now starting to feel like I should in college... and i guess just life in general. I don't feel so trapped anymore and I'm seeing tons more possibilities. It's weird how i hold myself back and how stupid I feel that things were ever hard for me in the first place. When I just don't worry about what people think of me, life is so much more enjoyable.  ...... I don't mind if no one ever reads this and I don't think I'd mind if only one person read it and completely hated it. I'm just happy because it's mine and I am not trying to change it for anyone.  

Sometimes I wonder if I'm where I'm supposed to be. Well actually all the time I wonder that along with what I'm supposed to do. You know what? I think I could be happy with going through life not knowing and just being lead to wherever I'm supposed to be at that time. I think I could if I listened when I say, "I give my life to you, Lord." ... I just said that in my mind and then asked " So where am I supposed to be?" ... shoot. It's going to take a bit of time.  So I will live. I will REALLY live.  

- I feel weird signing my name here... so i think i'll put the first thing that comes to mind right.......now!             Yellow.  (--> the sun--> vitamin D-->another awesome day in store for tomorrow hopefully!) 

Thank you God for these days you give us. 

A Diary of Sorts

So why rainbows? Well I don't know, but isn't it a nice idea? I feel like in a list, it would be with carnivals, drive-ins, making animals out of clouds, flying kites, music, picnics, etc. ...simple, quaint, wonderful joys.

I sort of feel like now that I have a blog I have to use correct grammar. No more facebook, myspace, or texting talk. ... well hopefully. Ha, I have a feeling the ....'s are not going to go. Actually, maybe none of it will... it is basically my diary for all intents and purposes. I never use correct grammar in my diaries. Well I guess we'll see. :)

Don't soundtracks sum up our life at that time we made it? I think so. I just recently made a summer soundtrack for 2010! I'm so excited about it. I know it's early but summer is just so exciting. Oh!.. summer should be on that list too! Well anyways, I listened to it on my way back to college from home (I just had spring break). Now back to 8 weeks of school, uhgg! At least these last 8 weeks are going to be filled with more sunny days and warm weather! I can't wait to be driving my car (alone or with friends) with the windows down and listening to my CD. That's all I pictured. I also pictured the weather as looking more like the 1960's color effect you find on picnik. It would be nice to see the world like that a day or two. Maybe sunglasses have been made to do it! ... Or maybe I could invent them. I think those would be the ultimate sunglasses. I DO love God's natural creation above all though. There was this one time(last day of our junior year...or maybe after) I was driving with my best friend, Summer, and there was a big thunderstorm..except this was the BEST thunderstorm I have EVER experienced! I swear there had to be 3 rainbows, it was raining a little bit, the grass was so green, and the sun mixed with a little glaze gave the look that we were living in Candyland. I know how this sounds, but if you were there, I swear this would be one of the ways you would choose to describe it. No colors of our aesthetic nature looked like they naturally do and somehow there were 1000 more colors. It was beautiful taken to a daydream beauty. If you've ever read the book "Perks of Being a Wallflower," first of all you should, second, I truly felt infinite. Looking back and thinking about it, I still do.

My summer 2010 soundtrack:

1. Wild at Heart- Gloriana

2. Small Town- John Mellencamp

3. Come On Come Out- A Fine Frenzy

4. The Lost Get Found- Britt Nicole

5. Send Me On My Way- Rusted Root

6. There is s Light That Never Goes Out- The Smiths

7. Don't Dream It's Over- Crowded House

8. Bird of the Summer- A Fine Frenzy

9. I'm Only Me When I'm With You- Taylor Swift

10. Who Says- John Mayer

11. Us- Regina Spektor

12. Here In Your Arms- Hellogoodbye

13. Free Fallin- John Mayer

14. Blackbird- Sarah Mclachlan

15. Why Georgia- John Mayer

16. Don't Stop Believing- Journey

17. Bigger than my Body- John Mayer

18. Fast Car- Tracy Chapman

19. Dancing In The Moonlight- Toploader

20. Sweet Disposition- The Temper Trap

.... i don't think these are in correct order though i tried to remember it. Making a soundtrack takes a lot of meticulous work... it has to flow just perfectly. :)

This whole CD represents freedom... or at least the idea of freedom. What I really want is to just feel infinite and free. I've put so many fences up and laid boundaries in my life that shouldn't be there but I'm really starting to remember what this feels like and that is what this soundtrack represents. I'm in a new relationship with God and I credit all of this to that and I look forward to the day when I can look back on this and say, " You had no idea." I really am happier but I know my purpose has yet to be discovered and my comfort comes and goes depending on the people I'm around. I guess on top of wanting to feel infinite and free I really want to be able to be who I am (and really know who I am) around everyone(not just select few) and be okay with that person. I want this so bad and I take back how I said that "I just want to feel infinite and free" because I know I must love and truly know who I am before this.

I know God has something great in store for my life and though it may be a struggle sometimes, I love being in a relationship with him. There are times when I feel completely wrecked in my faith but it leads to me learning so much more. All of it is love. God loves me and he loves you!

- Me

This is a diary of sorts